Eh, so I feel like talking about music today. I don’t know where I’m going with it.
I think my teacher would like me to take all the exams and teach music. I think my mother wants me to make a living out of music, however that may happen, whether that means teaching, recording, or what.
All I like is to play it, perform it, record it (if the cable is working, which most times it’s not). I like to make movies with music behind them. I don’t look forward to the idea of taking a practical exam. I like the theory ones.
The songs I have to learn, I don’t like. It’s all that ‘modern’ stuff with the chording in the left hand and melody in the right. I like to play with both hands, and mostly compose, not play other people’s music. I’m not forgetting anything I’ve learnt (in fact, I’m learning more through Google Ha ha!). Am I just being selfish though? To feel like quitting?
I have a great teacher, people who want what’s best for me. That does however imply that I do not want what’s best for me, or do not know what’s best for me, and I don’t like that thought either. Is it true?
Okay, so I’m just rambling on about it now. This is just what’s going through my head as I stare at the keyboards in front of me, not turning them on, not wanting to practise. Wanting to leave town, within the week, to escape everything. *sigh*